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by balloonfest '86

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1.
gone 04:36
What do i do when you're stuck in my head And things that i should say are being left unsaid Can you tell me what to do with myself Cause lately it feels like i could use some help Can't you see all i need is you But you seem to be into someone new Back up, let's find out where everything went wrong Because i haven't felt the same since you came along Come on tell me babe Nobody can tell me that we don't belong Because i haven't felt the same since you came along And i don't know where to turn now you're gone Falling for you was my first mistake I was just another heart you'd break Can't you see all i need is you Back up, let's find out where everything went wrong Because i haven't felt the same since you came along Come on tell me babe Nobody can tell me that we don't belong Because i haven't felt the same since you came along And i don't know where to turn now you're In the arms of someone else There's only so much that i can do When i'm trying to find the rest of myself And part of me's still stuck on you Back up, let's find out where everything went wrong Because i haven't felt the same since you came along Come on tell me babe Nobody can tell me that we don't belong Because i haven't felt the same since you came along And i don't know where to turn now you're gone
2.
support 04:15
Tell me why We keep on running circles round our problems Never solve 'em, just hope they go away Why do we Pretend like everything is still okay Not that it mattered to you anyway What's the solution What's the confusion when we know the answer It's better if i let you go Cause i can't love you I can't love you the way you need me to Save the tears We knew that this was coming for a while If we try too hard we'll ruin what we had But now what's the difference What's the insistence when we know what has gone wrong I needed attention You needed support We're both worth more than what we used each other for You needed attention I needed support We're both worth more than what we used each other for
3.
I wish I took more pictures Of me And you Destroying the evidence We were different people Back then, "how naive" you said. Turning away from me Refer to me in past tense You're playing games with my head If this is what it's like to love you, i never will again I called you a friend Until the end You taught me love But you'd given up And now you're gone Onto someone new so soon I don't think i expected that from you But what else do you want me to do? Now I'm standing by the docks On New Year's Eve Trying to get back the time You stole from me The person you made me I won't forget I'll never see him again Refer to me in past tense You're playing games with my head If this is what it's like to lose you, i never will again I called you a friend Until the end You taught me love But you'd given up And now you've left Onto something new I don't think i expected that from you What else do you want me to do? And i'll never go back there again My life with you is over We're too faaaar apart When you put your hand on my face Tryna hide the tears away I saw the real you I finally saw the truth I never wanted you to gooooooooooooo I never wanted you to gooooooooooooo I called you a friend Until the end (I didn't want you to goooooooooooooo) You taught me love But you'd given up (I didn't want you to gooooooooooo) And now that you're away You left me with nothing to say (I didn't want you to goooooooooo) I don't think i expected that from you I really thought you loved me too
4.
I keep pushing off the things That I really want to do Because of you Feels like every day's a battle With the next new part of you that decides to show Every time I start to figure it out It's like you're waiting at my door What's that all about Don't I deserve more? And the minute I think that you're gone Is the minute that you're reaching out again What a friend Every time I start to figure it out It's like you're waiting at my door What's that all about Don't I deserve more All the last-ditch efforts that you try And the million ways you lie Make me wish away Makes me wonder why I wanted you to stay
5.
cleave land 03:09
You maaaaade me hate this place Please leeeeeeet me escape your reign When are you gonna realize you're at the end of the road That all the things you pretend to care about will get overshadowed By the false intentions you mask your inner devil with It sucks that i thought i was enough Yut you don't know how it feels to care about someone that much I can't look at you anymore You bring me down and say you're bettering yourself I call you out, you look at me like that's some sort of crime Don't screw me over then act like everything's fine The games you play are done It sucks that i thought i was enough But you don't know how it feels to care about Someone that much Woah Woah Woah-oh-oh Woah Woah It sucks that I thought I was enough But you wouldn't know how it feels to care about someone that much I don't know you I can't see past you I can't look at you anymore
6.
Walking alone to my car I'm still afraid of the dark And i kinda got used to being guided by your light But right now i know that's too much I can't burden you with that stuff So we sit and wait Side by side And i can't tell why you want to hide Since when did i become wise I can't look into your eyes Without seeing parts of me Replay the words that you said Get myself out of my head And put the pieces back in place But right now i can't see your face without thinking Take me back to that day When you told me that we'd be forever Take me back to that time When you said we would never be apart And i know i might not be what you need right now But if anything changes just know that i'll be around I miss the way that we'd talk Crazy that's all that we've got Bits and pieces of the love we left behind Are promises made to be broken Are there words that should be more than just spoken Or do they fade away How can i say Take me back to that day When you told me that we'd be forever Take me back to that time When you said we would never be apart And i know i might not be what you need right now But if anything changes just know that i'll be around
7.
song 7 02:36
Well I came here to tell you the thoughts in my head Ask you to stay and come sleep in my bed But that's all up to luck Since she's the one that you'd rather love Resentment is all that I have in my brain I'll try to help but you never change Well I thought you had died Thought you'd been eaten alive By the vultures of love There's echoes of my past So please Forgive me if I don't wanna dance You asked me to change For a little while It's time For you to take your own advice Save your tears A savior's breath My love you know how this will end
8.
I can't find you Are you still here Cause lately it seems Like you've disappeared I reach out to you And i try to call But there's no one there There's nothing at all And i thought i knew What was on your mind Until i realized what i was looking for was hard to find We stand apart Thinking separate thoughts And i can't help but feel that a part of me is lost I'm still gazing at stars that you couldn't see I drew constellations between you and me So i was left stranded in a different key While you were singing your own melody We burned out and tried to rekindle the flame And i know you were wrong and it was all just a game But i can't help taking the blame There were times where we lived without a care But now i don't even know how to clear the air Before it even started we knew it fell apart And i can't find it in me to restart Catch up to me as i'm running from you Cause it seems like the only thing that we still do I'm still gazing at stars that you couldn't see I drew constellations between you and me So i was left stranded in a different key While you were singing your own melody We burned out and tried to rekindle the flame And i know you were wrong and i shouldn't have shame But i can't help myself from taking- I can't help but bring you near It's in my nature dear You keep pulling me close just to push me away And i can't face what's making me say Gravity's come to be the one thing i fear Planets collide till they turn to dust And what remains there is what's left of us So please understand why i feel this way And why none of this ever feels quite okay Cause we've drifted apart and there's no coming back So it's time for me to get back on track And it sucks but i know it's true But there's no more me and you.

about

a message from ceej:

i think every time something i’m a part of comes out i get a little bit sad. i kept thinking “oh here’s this thing i’m releasing, i’m going to have so many small problems with it that only i will hear”, but ever since working on the balloonfest material with Matt, those feelings have diminished.

i determined it’s because matt and i listen to different music. we produce things differently. we write songs differently. we play different instruments! but all this difference culminates into something we both find beautiful.

this record is our first dip into producing anything like this, but that’s a good thing. being able to release this, on this day, and have it out in the world, it’s a benchmark. a benchmark of the sound matt and i wanted to create in this exact moment. things going forward might sound the same, they might sound different, but what matters is matt and i are in the midst of defining our sonic DNA.

this album is about heartbreak. this album is us wearing our hearts on our sleeves. this album contains creative differences. this album has creative compromise. this album is us having pure, artistic freedom. sharing that is something very special that i hold dear to my heart.

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released April 29, 2022

PERFORMANCE: MATT SULLIVAN/CEEJ WOLF
WRITING: MATT SULLIVAN/CEEJ WOLF
MIXING: MATT SULLIVAN/CEEJ WOLF
ADDITIONAL WRITING ON TRACK 8: TALYA BRAVERMAN
MASTERING: BILL HENDERSON
ALBUM ART BY: TAY LEIGH (TWITTER: @ODYSSEYVISUAL)

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